Teen crush flash back

So I've been very absent on the blog these days. I'm finding it very hard to write anything serious or find the time to do any proper writing so I'm going to ease into things by writing a pretty vacuous blog post about my celebrity crushes, starting from about age 16.

Yerrrrr, you know you want to share yours too!

1) Billy Martin, guitarist for Good Charlotte



When I was 16 I went through a bit of a pop punk phase. Good Charlotte had just released "Predictable" and I "fell in love" with this lanky, tattooed guy who looked crazy good in eyeliner. Things I did to sate this infatuation ranged from filling up my Billy Martin photo folder (which I would browse daily), to making a website in IT class dedicated to him. I AM SO EMBARRASSING. I set my website background to a very wobbly "I love Billy Martin" banner done in Paint. It is safe to say I was psychotic. I started to dress the way I think "punks" dressed like: rock tee, pleated skirt, leggings, converses studded with "fuck you" badges and whatnot. So Jay Jays, right? Check out the video to "I just wanna live". Billy is the one in the strawberry costume. LOVE IT.



2) Clay Aiken, American Idol 2 runner up



And you thought you liked nerdy guys! This guy will knock Seth Cohen and Michael Cera off the nerd list. And I mean that in the most endearing way. Clay still has a soft spot in my heart. Back in the day, Channel ten were airing American Idol 3 on TV and I was super into it because Australia had just successfully screened their first season of Idol. Everyone was eager for an Idol fix before the second season so this screening was a godsend. I was happily minding my own business one evening before dinner and BAM! Clay Aiken was all over my TV and I decided at that moment, I was "in love" with him. You know what else I did? I recorded every episode of American Idol 3 with Clay Aiken on it. I don't know where that tape is now, but thank fuck for youtube. I thought Clay was the hottest thing in the world. And that voice! I wanted him to serenade me to sleep. I contemplated asking my relatives in the US to buy me his album and send it over here because I wanted to support him and not illegally download his music. I decked out my diary with photos of him EVERYWHERE. Each week, there was a new photo of Clay to make me smile. And yes, I contacted every photo so the ink wouldn't smudge if it got wet. I AM SUCH A DORK.





3) Jared Leto, Actor and Singer for 30 Seconds to Mars



Yes people, you are very welcome. OK I have to admit, by this stage I was about 17, going on 18, so a bit older but still stupid and easily infatuated. I had started progressing to other bands by this stage (my Billy Martin phase was starting to wane). I was watching Video Hits (remember that show?) and I saw the video for The Kill. Naturally, I thought any guy with a floppy fringe and eye liner was a babe bomb so I had to look up this band. I genuinely really like 30 Seconds to Mars and so that was all I listened to and solo moshed to. That's when you pretend you're in a mosh pit in your room. There's usually no one there to judge you, but people do walk in/you fall over and twist your ankle. Then I started watching all the films he's been in, like American Psycho and Lord of War, and just thought he could do no wrong, although some of his recent hairstyles have been questionable but whatever. He's also starred in this TV show called My So-Called Life (which I need to get my hands on).



4) Cillian Murphy, amazeballs Irish actor



So... by this stage I was officially 18 and my tastes have matured. I was also easily swept away by suave badasses. I thought Cillian Murphy's Dr. Jonathan Crane in Batman Begins had it all: he had the nerd factor written all over him, exceptional blue eyes, and was just ... bad.  Then in Red Eye he was all flirtatious with Rachel McAdams but he psychotically knocked out RM by headbutting her, then swiftly wiping away the trickle of blood slowly running down his forehead (which was perfectly framed by his luscious hair). Then he was in Inception (which was why I saw that film) and I felt let down because Cillian Murphy is such a good actor and the character he played was so blah and same with Ken Watanabe (but that's another discussion). Anyway, I heard this guy speak with his native accent and it was just, for lack of a better phrase, a "panty dropper".



OK, this list could go on forever, and maybe I'll do a part two or whatever, but I have to remove myself from the internet. In the meantime, who did you hopelessly crush on at 16+?

pins and needles

Last night I made last-minute plans to go see a film with Liam. It is not the best time to go see a film because most films want to open either on Boxing Day or a week before it to make money during the Christmas rush. There were only 4 films being screened at my local Village Cinemas, which is a decent cinema complex, and they were all released a good three weeks ago (except for Twilight but no one should have to endure that). What I found annoying was that I couldn't find a synopsis of the films anywhere. Brad Pitt was in something called 'Moneyball' and judging by the poster, it looked like a baseball film. Ick.
We eventually settled on 'In Time'.

I remember seeing the trailer for 'In Time' and thinking that it looked interesting, sans the Cillian Murphy connection. I received a $40 Village gift card on my birthday so I used it. Let me just say, going to the pictures nowadays is so expensive. We got 2 concession tickets, 2 choc tops and 1 small coke for $45. It's crazy expensive. I was lucky I had my voucher.

The film is set in the future where money is replaced with time. Each person stops aging at 25 and to survive, they need more time. Justin Timberlake plays Will Salas who lives in the ghettos and lives each day as it comes. He usually only has a couple of hours left before he heads to work to get some more. Long story short, a man with a century left wants to die so he gives Will all his time. Will goes into New Greenwich, the rich part of town, to win some more money. The Timekeepers (the police officers) think that Will killed the man who gave him all these hours and arrest him. It just gets crazy from there.

I really enjoyed the film. I thought the idea was fantastic that tied in well with all the Occupy stuff happening around the world. Cillian Murphy was in it which is usually a plus for me because I adore that man but he wore this long leather trench coat the WHOLE TIME and it was disgusting. Amanda Seyfried on the other hand looked amazing. Costume really had fun with her character. It was very minimalist. Nipped waists and very short hemlines accentuated Seyfried's stunning pins, paired with GORGEOUS heels: from black Louboutin-esque pumps, to heeled ankle boots. It was perfect. My favourite outfit was this crushed velvet dress, and I don't usually like velvet because they are unforgiving, like lycra and viscose.

Images from: refinery 29 and AmandaSeyfried.net

I also really liked the wig, but I did find it a little disconcerting at first because I'm so used to her as a luscious blonde. I want that hair. I think they could do no wrong with her outfits although I did wonder logistically how a) she could run so fast in those heels and how b) she pulled out these clothes out of thin air when on the run.

Oh man I totally saw the poster for Mission Impossible 4. I have to see that film, and watch all the other Mission Impossible films beforehand. It's just my excuse to fuel my, er, Tom Cruise "thing". Oh, and has anyone seen the third one? Because I have issues with how Phillip Seymour Hoffman dies in that one. He's this incredible villain/badass and dies he from a gunshot wound? He's such an epic character and deserves to be blown up in a helicopter or something. Also the third one sucked because it didn't make ANY sense. I just watched it for the, er, "candy".

God I am so wrong.

Wishful thinking

The other day, I had the weirdest and probably the coolest dream in the world. I haven't had one this awesome yet and if I have, I've totally forgotten all about it. I was in the midst of a Saw-esque blood bath and Joseph Gordon-Levitt (wearing a GODDAMN NAVY SUIT and pale blue shirt) was in charge of this gang that tortured and shot all these people stealing drugs or something. I was being chased and I was terrified. Then I found out that everything was staged. I watched someone get shot, fall to the ground, laugh hysterically, then get back up. It was fake blood, fake torture and fake guns. Somehow we proceeded back to JGL's awesome apartment, taking turns to shower, wearing JGL's many white, oversized shirts, standing around being awesome in his dimly-lit apartment. JGL apologised for scaring us. I told him it was OK and that he was a really good actor. I may have touched/gripped/squeezd/stroked his arm appreciatively. Then we made out, but it was terrible because he kept sucking on my chin, leaving weird bite marks everywhere.

Now I just want to draw pictures of him.

 

Who has made awesome guest stars in your dreams? Haha ;)

Things I want

I had a really bad day at work today. Liam tried to cheer me up with a joke.

Liam: "What's brown and sticky?"
Me: "Sticky date pudding."
Liam: "Nah. A stick."

Made me laugh. It's so simple it's weirdly hilarious. Anyway, I think I'm going to make some macarons to cheer me up tomorrow. I'm going to use a simple macaron recipe and adjust it accordingly to make coconut and salted caramel macarons. This could be disastrous, but I hope not. I can't wait!

On a different topic, I finally went and saw the new and final Harry Potter film. I am really sad! It's officially over! Makes me very sad, but hey, how hot does Daniel Radcliffe look? He's all buff and stuff. It's manly. I like manly. Actually, speaking of Daniel Radcliffe, how much does he look like Elijah Wood?



Elijah Wood is another one that I'm kinda enamored by because of the show 'Wilfred'. I had the BIGGEST crush on him when I was 13. I tried to watch every film he was in (it was kinda hard because I hadn't discovered the internet then). Good times.

SO! The Australian dollar is going well, ey? I'm so tempted to BUY HEAPS OF STUFF ON ASOS! They have this awesome leopard print jacket that I want.


Asos, US$137.91

It looks so cute but it's so bizarre. I'm waiting for it to go on sale. They also have this parka in a brown/rust colour. I think it's awesome. I should get it or something.


Asos, US$120.67


Asos, US$37.93

These shoes are also awesome. They would go with a lot of things and the thick heel is appealing to me. I want SO MANY THINGS from Asos, but I already bought a pair of jeans at Cotton On today. BTW, I bought one of those straight leg, distressed jeans in a SIZE 10! That's never happened to me before. I feel proud. But back to the question: WHAT DO I DO? Should I get them? I want to get them. I think I will get them.

I'm getting them. Thanks for listening.

To ogle

I went to the doctor to check out this cold. I don't know that much about whooping cough but I did expect to be prescribed antibiotics as soon as the doctor was done stethoscoping me. That obviously didn't happen. I ended up needing a blood test to see if the whooping was in my blood. I suppose it's necessary, but I've had this cough for ages, and I would really like it to go away.

I went out with my boyfriend for dinner one night and we ordered this spicy chicken salad for dinner and normally I could handle the spiciness, but lordy, that chilli tickled my throat so violently that I had a spasm-ing coughing fit in the restaurant. I was very uncomfortable. This freaked me out because what if I go to Thailand and I can't handle the chilli because my cough is so bad? That's not acceptable!

Anyway, here's a photo of James McAvoy. I can't wait for the new X-Men.


taken from here.

No one wants to hear about your diet

I resumed "exercise" yesterday after a week of absence due to my cough. I don't know what's wrong with me. I still have this cough, and in fact, I believe it has gotten worse as sometimes when I cough (ie. when I wake up at 3:30am for a coughing fit), I can't breath and I really have to will myself to try breathing deeply. It's scary and I really hope I don't have something like asthma because that would be annoying. On top of this, my ankle is being a shit. It's very swollen, although oddly enough, when I go for a job it doesn't hurt in the slightest. Perhaps that's good for the ankle? Somehow I doubt that.

So far, I've lost almost 4 kg. I'm pretty proud but no one has noticed! I know, I know, who cares what people think. But you know, if I can tell that I've lost weight, surely someone else can too! But then again, I have been wearing a lot of layers because it's fucking freezing these days. At least my trainer has noticed. That's good. I've become really used to eating the foods I've been eating, and the portions and whatnot. I think when this is over, I will continue eating what I eat for lunch. It's always a tuna salad, but it's tasty, and it's going to save me a lot of money anyway so I'm going to keep that up.

I think on my birthday, I'm going to just eat anything I like. I'm keen on seeing the new X men film (I look forward to the James McAvoy overdose) that day and then off to bimbo's for some yummy pizza.



ARGH. How good is the trailer? Shivers. Everywhere. Maybe I should like... attempt a career in trailer editing. WHOA.

But honestly, I'm so keen for that movie. I only found out about it when my boyfriend and I were watching Source Code (also, that one's not too bad) and the trailers were shown. I think we're planning to watch the 3rd Transformers film in Bangkok. Apparently their cinemas are amazing, so that's pretty awesome.

I'M SO EXCITED!

Day 4: A song that makes you sad

I watched the Last Samurai the other night and from then on I've been (and I feel ashamed to admit this) rather infatuated with Tom Cruise. Yes, it's weird, because he's kind of frightening and all of that. I'm so aware of this. But you know, all that stuff aside, he's a really good actor, and quite attractive, and so I'm just going to watch... all of his films. I call it a Cruise-athon! Well, actually, not all of his films. I mean, come on: Knight and Day? I watched "Interview with the Vampire" and it was amazing. Tom Cruise and Brad Pitt were both very convincing and handsome in this film.

Anyway, enough about that.



I think this song is self-explanatory. Every time I sing along with John Lennon, I feel myself welling up. I suppose the reason why I find this song sad is its connection with John Lennon. I feel upset that I've never been able to experience the Beatles live. If listening to the Beatles can make completely change your perspective on music, imagine what it would have been like to live in that era. I wish I knew.

What song makes you sad?

He's like a handsome shark!

Since it is/was Valentine's Day (depending on your time zone), I thought it would be appropriate to share my 2 cents about crushing on boys, and why you should never, ever, ever, EVER waste $7 to buy a year 10 boy a rose on Valentine's Day.

When I was in year 8, I was a serial crusher. Any cute boy I saw it was BAM! Crushed. I think I had a crush on 8 boys in my class at that time. Actually, to be fair, I really liked one boy but my friend was super into him and she didn't know I liked him and I couldn't tell her I liked him so I had to pretend I was into other boys, which wasn't exactly a lie. Anyway, this said guy that I really liked had a really cute brother in year 10. Utterly gorgeous to my 14-year-old eyes. It was actually all about the hair. It was as if a mohawk had sex with Yu-Gi-Oh: utter spunk.

Anyway, our school had like a Valentine's Day drive where we could anonymously send roses, gerberas and chocolates to our Valentines for V day. Because I had this thing for this guy's brother, I stupidly decided to send his brother a rose. I wrote this heartfelt note on the card too, something along the lines of how there were people out there who liked him and how I thought he was really cool and just REALLY REALLY EMBARRASSING SHIT.

I couldn't bring myself to hand in the card, so I asked my friend to do it for me. She's a fearless one so she nonchalantly rocked up to the V day station and when the girl selling V day flowers read who the card was for, she gave (and I know this because I was watching from afar like the stalker I am) my friend the dirtiest look ever. I have no words to describe it. It was like a mixture of shock and disgust, like my friend was some kind of mutant cockroach trying to hump her leg.

When V day finally came and roses were being handed out, I was informed by my bunch of spies that this guy NEVER received a flower BUT he knew he was getting one because HIS FRIEND TOLD HIM. Fucking twat.

Well, I felt ripped off. I paid $7 for a fucking rose, and I couldn't complain about it or else it wouldn't have been anonymous. Biggest waste of money ever. But to be honest though, I'm glad he never received it. I'm glad he never read the embarrassing crap I crapped on about. If I could go back in time, I would have punched myself in the nose.

It may seem like I am making out like I am a serious, mature woman who is beyond having little bursts of infatuations, but you all know that is utter bull shit. I still crush on people. My latest crush is on Iwan Rheon. He's one of the stars of E4's Misfits. Google him. He gets super hot in Season 2 Episode 3. And he is Welsh.

YES I WILL PUT A PICTURE OF HIM ON THIS BLOG.

What's not to like about James Marsden?

Has anyone else noticed that while James Marsden is a sumptuously good looking man, he's always playing the role of the rebound-esque guy. Aside from 27 Dresses (mind you, the only reason I saw this film was because Marsden was in it. Then I saw what shoes he was wearing and I felt horrified that wardrobe allowed that to happen. He was wearing those sneakers that should only be paired with gym clothes and nothing else. Gasp indeed), he's always playing the role of the guy whose girlfriend ditches him for another dude because that other dude is her true love. He's always the nice guy that gets dumped because the woman loves someone else. Allow me to demonstrate:

Enchanted



Despite Marsden's heroic attempts to bring Amy Adams back to their cartoon world so they can have their true love's first kiss, Adams' heart is won over by McDreamy himself, Patrick Dempsey.

The Notebook



Marsden tries really hard to win Rachel McAdams' heart and even though he was rich, handsome and absolutely wonderful and not at all a dickhead, McAdams still carried a burning torch for Ryan Gosling.

X-Men



OK I didn't like how we never really got to see Marsden's eyes in this film. Anyway, this time Marsden is all hunky like a superhero and when Famke Janssen, his GF, falls a bit in love with Hugh Jackman but then dies, he's über depressed. She comes back to life (somehow) and she kinda kills him. Sad.

Superman Returns



I haven't seen this one but Marsden totally plays the role of Kate Bosworth's future hubby and I'm going to assume that she ends up falling in love with Superman and forfeiting her engagement. It's hard to say no to superman. Oh shit. I just read the wikipedia page for Superman Returns. She doesn't leave Marsden for Superman, but we all fucking know they're bloody meant to be together.

Anyway. That's all I've got.

Inception Review/Spoiler/Pervefest

I watched 'Inception' last night for the second time. I think when I saw it for the first time I just thought it was amazing. Probably because to have someone even think of a story line such as that is incredible on its own (but the my partner showed me this poem by Edgar Allen Poe that I believe could have been Christopher Nolan's inspiration for the film). Actually, I think I remember reading an interview with Ken Watanabe where he said he actually didn't think much of the script, but signed on to act in it because he trusted Nolan, probably because he's already worked with Nolan in 'Batman Begins'. I think. This may or may not be true. Maybe I'm confusing some kind of dream with reality. Maybe I read this interview in a dream. But I doubt it. I'm pretty sure Watanabe didn't like the script, or at least, it wasn't well written enough. OK, now I feel compelled to find this interview to prove I'm not insane.

OK. So I've found an interview with both Ken Watanabe and Cillian Murphy (with gorgeous pictures of both actors). They both admit that the script was really difficult to understand and that they trusted Nolan because he's such a visual person.

Actually, speaking of Watanabe and Murphy, I want to say that both actors are amazing. They are just the few most talented actors ever and I thought the roles they played in the film did not do their talent any justice. It's like watching Daniel Craig in 'The Jacket' and then watching him in 'Quantum of Solace'. If you watched 'Quantum of Solace' first, you wouldn't even know how brilliant Craig is as an actor. That's how I feel about Watanabe and Murphy's roles in 'Inception'. Sure they were necessary characters, but aren't really good characters. However, when I think about the other characters in the film, I don't think they were all that complex. I think with a film like 'Inception' you can't have your characters be so complex because the plot is so complex on its own. You just need to make sure they are plausible characters, and I think all of them are.

The story line is pretty sick. I mean, sure it takes AGES to get into the actual inception, but the start of the film is completely necessary. First of all, while Ariadne is training and learning the ropes of extraction (P to the S, how do you pronounce Ariadne?), it's really us learning how their job works. Ariadne sort of is the link between us as the view and the rest of the team in the film: while she's learning, we learn with her. She's curious about Cobb's past and so are we: Arthur and Eames know their boundaries with him, but not Ariadne so we really need her to ask all the questions we want to know. We're the only ones that know Cobb is having trouble suppressing his memory of Mal. Plus, who doesn't love Ellen Page (please don't comment saying YOU don't like Ellen Page). I still prefer her in 'Juno' and 'Whip It' but that's probably because I really love 'Whip It' and Drew Barrymore.

One thing that doesn't make sense to me is that Saito is meant to have hired Cobb and co as a tester to see how good they are are what they do, and while they fail their task, Saito is impressed nonetheless and hires them anyway. Well, first of all, I have no recollection of something like this happening. Not even remotely. I'm assuming that the conversation in the helicopter was meant to explain all of this but I don't think it's done very well. Maybe I'm just dumb. Please explain this to me if you thought it made sense.

OK. So I've been pretty good and serious about the film. I HAVE TO talk about Cillian Murphy, Joseph Gordon-Levitt and Tom Hardy. 'Inception' has such a good looking cast, I would be wrong to not talk about how good looking they all are. I just want to say the first time I saw the trailer to 'Inception' I knew I had to watch it, not because the trailer was so awesome I had to watch it, but because Cillian Murphy is in it. Everyone should know by now that I carry a forever-burning torch for Cillian Murphy. It was lucky that 'Inception' was good too.



You know, I have to admit that I never really thought Joseph Gordon-Levitt to be all that babe until I saw 'Inception'. I thought he looked really cute in 'Ten Things I Hate About You', but Heath Ledger was more attractive to me. But bloody oath, JGL was gorgeous in this film! I think it might have been all that gravity-defying wall climbing. Muchos Masculine. Plus there's just something about him that says he doesn't take himself too seriously and is up for a bit of fun re: dancing scene in '500 Days of Summer'



As for Tom Hardy, um English Bad Boy much? That's what James Bond should be, really. There was something really hot about him eat nuts with Cobb. I find Eames easily the most irresistible out of all the 'Inception' characters.



SIGH.


I love this photo of Ken Watanabe and Cillian Murphy. It's so cute! Plus, can you believe Watanabe is like 50??? INSANE. He looks bloody young!

Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Part One - Review/Pervefest

Look, I'm not gonna lie. I fucking loved Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Part One. Fucking loved it. In fact, it was the most intense Harry Potter film to date. Even though I knew what was coming, I still flinched, gasped, giggled, bawled (I actually started crying two minutes into the film. Somehow, Hermione obliviating her parents' memories reduced me to a burst pipe,) gripped my date's arm and smooshed my eyes into his shoulder because Bathilda Bagshot scared the shit out of me.

It was awesome.

Also, how weird was the whole Harry-Hermione-making-out thing that came out of the locket? It was like... so sexual, which was obviously the point, considering the locket was there to mess with Ron's mind. But still, it was pretty sexy. I mean they looked kinda naked and awkward.

Speaking of sexual, I really couldn't get over just how gorgeous Jason Isaacs looked in the film. I remember thinking Lucius Malfoy was an epic babe when I watched Chamber of Secrets, but because I was about 13 or 14 years old when I watched it, I felt wrong thinking that about him. Now that I'm a mature 21-year-old, I can ogle loudly. Oh that's a gross phrase. Point is, Lucius Malfoy never looked sexier with his long blonde hair, one hand clutching a goblet of fine wine, showing a bit of neck:



Ergh. You know what's wrong? Jason Isaacs is probably older than my parents. As is Alan Rickman. Speaking of Alan Rickman, I wish he was in the film a bit longer, but I guess he'll be in the second installment so that's something to look forwards to.

Oh no. This "review" has become a list of really hot men who are kinda old.

ALSO. HOW HOT WAS THE HEAD SNATCHER? I thought he was quite babe. I actually thought he was Daniel Johns and squealed to my partner that Daniel Johns was in the film. Oh shit this has really become less about the film and too much about the hot actors in it. I have to stop this. This always happens when I watch a film. I always let the hotness of the actors persuade me to like the film. That's what happened to Batman Begins (if it helps, the film is awesome, but only the first time you watch it).

ANYWAY!



Aside from being a perve fest for me, the film was great. I just loved it. I'm a huge fan of the books and I'm SO GLAD they decided to cut out Lupin's "I'm-not-ready-to-be-a-father/let-me-come-with-you-guys-on-your-journey" moment. When I read that in the book I just felt like it was very out of character. I understand that these are terrifying and uncertain times but Lupin would never cave so pathetically like he did. Harry was right to tell him to fuck off.

What I am disappointed about is the role Kreature plays in the film. Kreature and his relationship to Regulas Black really touched me and when they cut out that really emotional moment for the film, it disappointed me. But then again when I think about it, it's not at all something that can be done in film without it being cheesy.

OH! And Dobby. That was another tear-jerking moment. My partner thought it was funny that I cried so much during the film. Whatever, he's never read the book. He can't possibly imagine what any of us are going through.

All I can say now is bring on Part Two! I'm most excited for this. And when the film ends, I'm going to cry because it will officially mean Harry Potter is truly finished.

basta!

I want to write something witty and beautiful here. Instead I will show you this:



Sigh. A lot.

babed as...

HELLS YEAH! This week on People are Just People, Susie wants us to write down our top 5 unconventional babes. Yessssss....

1. Cillian Murphy



2. Adrien Brody



3. Wes Anderson



4. Elijah Wood



5. Simon Pegg



Can I just say that it was very difficult for me to pick a top five...

Rate my day

Once again, the lovely lasses over at People are Just People want us to rate our days, and I shall do exactly that! I have to say, I can't urge you enough to participate in these activities. It's fun, and interesting to read how people respond to each topic.

So I woke up at 9:30am instead of the 8am I set my alarm for (4/10, annoyed that I've wasted my day, but overall refreshed). I contemplated breakfast, but launched into some vegan cupcake baking while The Circle played in the background (8/10, Yumi Stynes is so cool). The cupcakes come out, with most of them stuck to the tin (2/10, epically annoyed as I did spray the tins with oil).


Yumi Stynes

Then Bel and her sister came over to help with my lolly bags (8/10, excited). Bel and I gossiped about work (2/10, infuriated by my manager's attack on my service skills) while Sam sifted through my hard drive and started watching The IT Crowd (8/10, season three, good laughs). Bel and Sam finish packing the lolly bags while I put the final batch of muffins in the oven (8/10, proud). Bel and Sam go home and I make myself some steamed prawn dumplings and salad (9/10, healthy and tasty). Mum calls, asking me to defrost some food. It's 3pm, I'm nervous because I start work at 4pm. I get a message from work, I start work at 5:30pm instead of 4pm (5/10, relieved I don't have to rush and able to sneak in a shower, annoyed at losing money).



I hop in the shower and find a rash building on my thigh: I've been bitten my some kind of tiny insect (3/10, slightly alarmed, itchy and a bit curious). I get out of the shower, and dress in a hurry: "plaid" shirt (buttoned up to the top), navy woolen vest, purple jeans (homage to Emma Roberts in Wild Child, even though her jeans were pink), and faux tortoise shell glasses (8/10, . felt pleased with my appearance. I also want a bow tie).


Emma Roberts

Head off to work, decided to make macaroons tomorrow (9/10, fucking excited). Start work, I find out it's just me and Matt working (7/10, I like Matt, and I'm so glad I'm not working with authority people). Manager stressed the importance of customer service (4/10, sick and tired of hearing this). Worked (2/1o, bored). Then my partner came to visit me and said hi, showed me the goodies he bought: a vest and shirt for my 21st, and a xbox controller so I can play Tekken 6 with him (10/10, I miss him and I can't wait to play Tekken 6).


I want to play as the panda

Cash up, go home, eat food (7/10), facemail my partner (10/10), watch some IT Crowd (10/10), sitting in bed, cuddling my hot water bottle (10/10).

So that's my day. It's super dull *smiley face*

It's in the special way we fuck...

When I was younger, Placebo was just this band everyone talked about in bits. I had never heard their music until I was about 17 when my friend loaned me his copy of Meds. It was, quite simply, amazing, but I only started listening to it compulsively in my first year of uni. It was on my ipod for months. It always reminds me Marilyn Manson's Mechanical Animals.

Anyway, I went to see Placebo on Monday and I have to say, it's been ages since I've been in a mosh pit. I actually thought to myself, "you are too old for a mosh pit." But then again, it's not like I've been in heaps of mosh pits before. I've only been in one raging one (at Good Charlotte, when I was 15). Oh wait that is not true. I was in the mosh pit at Escape the Fate. Let's not go there, please.

I just want to add that I don't mind being in the mosh pit, but I do prefer being at the back where there is a better view and more room to breathe in. I was actually really close to the front at the start of the concert and as usual, I was pushed back. I don't mind that too much. What I do mind is when someone in the mosh decides it's all right to do a fart in such a confined area. It was disgusting and people around me were shouting, "STOP FARTING!".Then there was this woman who smuggled in a goon bag. That was genius. Utter genius. I'm not going to write how she did it but it is awesome. It was like when NWA sang Fuck the Police.



The thing about Placebo is that they are intoxicating. Their songs reel you in, if not for the melody then for the lyrics. Everything is very intense, sort of almost abstract in a way and just emotionally-charged. The song 'Drag' is so self-loathing, angry and desperate. "Pierrot the Clown" evokes such isolation and sadness. The thing I love most about Placebo's music is that it's so honest and elicits incredible imagery.







That night, Stefan Olsdal, a tall and willowy man, donned a silver suit that looked like it was made out of aluminum. He looked like some kind of dapper spaceman. If space men had office jobs, they would wear what Stefan wore.



Brian Molko, this beautiful, androgynous man. There's no other word to describe him. He is this hauntingly beautiful man, with a voice that is indescribable, but not because it's a beautiful voice. It's a voice that is both powerful and vulnerable. It's somewhat croaky but each small croak joins together with the other croaks to melt into one smooth note. It's so hard to describe. Brian simply wore a t shirt and a vest, both in dark grays, bordering black. It was so hard to see the band but every time I saw Brian, it was like I was breaking the surface of this mosh pit sea, this suffocating, sweaty, putrid-smelling sea and grabbing hold of air. To see Placebo was to breathe. It was so intense.



By the end of the night, my t shirt was drenched, my neck was aching, my ears ringing, my mouth dry. It was amazing.

phwoar!

I was doing my usual morning tweeting and I found something hilarious on Mia Freedman's blog mamamia. It is actually hilarious. Someone made a list of men women want to sleep with and a list of men women don't want to sleep with. Take a look (just a heads up, I'm going to be rather crass in this post):

Guys you would never suspect we want to have sex with but we’d totally do:

• Eddie Izzard in full drag
• Alan Rickman
• Gene Wilder as Willy Wonka
• Steve Buscemi
• Benicio Del Toro
• John C. Reilly
• The deformed guy from Mask because he was nice and also he seems like he’d be really grateful
• Captain Jack Sparrow
• Prince, even though he’s technically smaller than us
• Gary Oldman
• Adrien Brody
• Phillip Seymour Hoffman
• Both of the lead guys on Shawn of the Dead (but not at the same time)
• New Spock
• Schroeder from Peanuts
• Our best male friend at work whom you assume is gay but actually isn’t
• That limpy doctor on House. I think his name is “House”. And his cane.
• David Bowie when he was in Labyrinth
• Will Ferrell
• Paul Rudd
• Will Ferrell and Paul Rudd at the same time while the limpy doctor from House watches
• Your brother

Guys you assume we want to have sex with but actually we totally don’t:

• Tom Cruise
• Fabio
• Ashton Kutcher
• Our second best male friend at work who actually *is* gay but you don’t believe us
• The guy at the gym whose neck is larger than his head and he can’t put his arms down
• That same secretary at my job that you think is hot, and yeah, I know she’s not a dude but I’ve seen you ogle her and trust me, I could tap that. You couldn’t.
• That’s not a dare, by the way.
• Johnny Depp as Willy Wonka
• Your other brother

Taken from mamamia

What do you guys think? For me, yes for:
- Alan Rickman
- Adrien Brody
- Simon Pegg (even sexier in Hot Fuzz)
- Gary Oldman (but only in Harry Potter and Dracula, but without the accent and pre-weird dracula body)
- House (fo sho)
- Benicio del Toro (something about him screams 'beast in the sack')
- David Bowie

I'd also add:
- Chris Noth (not because of Sex and the City, just because he is gorgeous)
- David Tennant (fo sho and scottish accent please)
- Cillian Murphy (irish accent please)
- James McAvoy (scottish accent please)
- Jason Segal
- Pharrel Williams
- Will.I.Am ([fo sho] x 12384784834)

As for the guys I don't want to have sex with:
- Fabio (muscly men ain't my thang)
- Ashton Kutcher (just doesn't interest me)
- Johnny Depp as Willy Wonka (really disturbing. But I'd totally do him if he was Ichabod Crane from Sleepy Hollow)
- Zac Efron (Vanessa Hudgeons is too good for you)
- Taylor Lautner (you were Shark boy)

Wow this list has really turned into an "older men I want to bang" list. Ah. Sorry for the lewdness. Here's a sexy picture of Will.I.Am.


image from here

He reminds me of Sean Lennon there. Oh, I totally forgot to add Sean Lennon to my list.

I will battle for the sun

I have been getting in touch with a lot of Power Rangers. The good one ie. the first season. My favourite is obviously Trini Kwan because she's super awesome and partly because she's an asian lass like me. There's also the underlying chemistry between her and Billy Cranston (who I have a massive crush on right now, even though the actor him self is about 40 years old). Billy really reminds me of my partner so that probably explains why I have a massive crush on him. I sometimes like to pretend that I am Trini and that he is Billy. Yeah. Kinda sad, isn't it?


How tank does Billy look *epic sigh*


photos from here

What I have noticed after watching many episodes is that the fashion on the show is quite similar to what is in right now. The show was made in the early 90s, and currently we seem to be into early 90s silhouettes. I feel like I could totally draw inspiration from Trini and Kimberly. I love the Power Rangers so much.





Also, on a completely different subject, I'm going to see Placebo on the 22nd of February. I'm super excited!

I picked it because.... it breathes fire, Marshall!

I'm really in the mood to take photos of my clothes, then make polyvore-esque collages with photoshop. I'm either incredibly cool or incredibly sad. I wish I could be bothered playing dress ups today. It's so hot in my room but I need to clean my room because it's almost Chinese New Year and my mum is adamant that we clean the house to symbolise a "new start".

Chinese New Year also says we should buy new clothes. Yup, I'm so going to break my "no new clothes" ban. Actually, I'd just like to buy some accessories. And perhaps a nice coat for winter time. And maybe shoes. Haha.

Anyway, Chinese New Year totally falls on Valentine's Day and of course Chinese New year pawns Valentine's day. The thing is, I secretly would like to celebrate valentine's day. It doesn't have to be a grand gesture either, just nice flowers or a card, but my partner isn't an endorser of Valentine's day or the floristry industry. But this year, he actually wanted to do something with me. Just the thought alone was very romantic.

So I won't be celebrating Valentine's day (because Chinese New Year is way awesomer). But if you are, have a good one.

Here's a heart:

damn YOU!

Dearest Akon,

Your song "Sexy Bitch" is utterly vile. Women are labeled as "sluts" and "whores" because men like you demean us. Your song is very disrespectful. Don't go prancing around a pool, "singing" about how you're trying to be respectful. You're not. You are a very vile, vile man. You're offensive to both women and language. I hope your wife screams at you for singing such trash that demeans her sex.

But now, all they do, is remind me of you...

Over the past couple of years, I have come to realise that I don't like many people. Some of them, it's just quite ineffable (a word I learned from the great Ted Mosby), others, I have reason (I think).

Being out of high school for 3 years now has awakened me to a fact, and that fact is that almost all the boys I went to high school with are utter fucks.

You know the type:

I drive a really sick car, I drive it really fast on the freeway because it makes me look cool, I have a babe girlfriend whom I like to show off in front of my fully sick friends, I name my car, I am a mother fucking good dancer and I looooooooove getting wasted at clubs because that's how bad of a bad ass I am. Oh and I have a car for my display picture.

Yeah.

I'm sure these guys are wonderful to other people, but I have a personal vendetta against one of them. It started out like this:

During my primary schooling, I was picked on by my crush for being fat (yes, very crushing for the old self-esteem), as well as my friends' parents. Not a good time for me but I thought high school would be better, purely because, it's a new start and I'll make new friends who won't care that I'm a bit chubby.

When I started high school, everything seemed all right. Until the third day of class. It was really hot and this guy comes up to me and says to me, "do you understand cantonese?" and I said, "yes" and then he said in cantonese, "you're really fat" and walked off.

So from then on, I've hated this guy. Nothing any one can tell me will change my mind. We are facebook friends and he's just... a dickwad. He's one of those lame guys who use their cars are their DP, and publically tell people that he's lost his license for doing something "badass". And he names his car.

And look, I know many people name their cars. But no one I know refers to their car by their name. My best friend named her car Maxx. We joke about how she likes to "ride" him, but that's it. She doesn't say, "I'll go home and grab Maxx and we'll pick you up".

She doesn't do that because she's awesome.

Now, this is all probably all very hypocritical. I mean, I name everything. I named my Italian dictionary Richard. My laptop is Humphrey. My hard drives are Astrid and Jenny. My iPhone is Moby. I name everything.

But because I hate this guy so very much, I find every little thing he does very lame.

Fucker.